Category Archives: 12 step recovery

It’s y Party

July 20   IT’S MY PARTY   The party I was throwing for myself in addiction was nothing but a very long wake.  There were no smiles, only murmurs of what might have been.  I was filled with tears I … Continue reading

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The Water Yoou Drink

July 19     THE WATER YOU DRINK     “Anyone who has to be dragged to water doesn’t deserve a drink,” said my sponsor. “What about raising the bottom?” I questioned. “I’m not talking about that.  I am discussing … Continue reading

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Far off Places

July 18 FAR OFF PLACES   Meetings too near home are unsatisfying to me.  On smooth, simple days local meetings are fine; I catch a meeting, just slip it in.  On rough days I yearn for an out of town … Continue reading

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Time Tables

July 17   TIME TABLES   I know the train is coming and I want to read the schedule.  I hear rumors that the convoy going to Feelings will arrive in two years.  The five-year expedition to Getting My Brains … Continue reading

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Magic Wand

July 16 MAGIC WAND   “Why are you wearing that hat and waving that star studded stick?”  I asked my sponsor. “Isn’t this what you want, a magic wand?” she replied. “Whatever are you talking about?  I don’t want you … Continue reading

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The Rainbow

July 15     THE RAINBOW     “What is with that look of concentration?” asked my sponsor. “I am trying to see the gray.” “The gray?” she queried. “Yes, I heard at the meeting that between black and white … Continue reading

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Spontaneous Generation

July 11 SPONTANEOUS GENERATION   Dust under the bed turns into bugs. My grandfather believed in these alchemies of myth.   I thought myself free from the small witchcrafts of threat.  The longer I stay sober, the more real is the … Continue reading

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