Good as Gold

January 2

 

GOOD AS GOLD

 

 

Just because I’m as good as gold doesn’t mean that I win the prize.  Doesn’t mean I get my way.  Doesn’t mean I gain your heart.  Being ‘extra special sweetness and light girl’ doesn’t secure my future.  It does prevent me from living my life as someone I don’t like.  It contents me to keep my own company.  It is a huge improvement over living as the raging fury I once was.  Any destination I desire is more readily assessable from this amiable posture; in spite of inexpert yearning.  I can breathe past you if must be, walk down the road holding my own hand instead of holding a lung full of air. But I am the treasure.  You must earn me never capture me.  Appreciate me not devalue me. I’m good as gold. And please know that I am the prize.

 

 

Remember yourself as you would an old friend

 

 

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THERE ARE ONLY 23 MORE SHOPPING DAYS LEFT TILL MY NERVOUS BREAKDOWN

Shoppers beware: I have a careful plan
I can juggle these thirty things and keep these twenty people happy
Dig around in the dirt at these three excavation sites
And hold onto my sanity for twenty-three more days.

My sponsor says “Having a plan like that
Means I’m already crazy.”
My sponsor says “I don’t have to please anyone
But myself, my Higher Power and her.”

That can’t be right.
What is the point of sobriety if I can’t do it all?
She says “I don’t even have to please her or myself.”
What does that mean?

How can I tell if I’m pleasing my Higher Power?
She says “Shut up and you’ll find out.”
Great! What a plan, I like my countdown better
Of course I do, It’s mine, my countdown, my life, mine, mine, mine.

Maybe my sponsor isn’t all wrong.
OK, quiet….da, da, da, …da, da, OK quiet for real
Hmmmm, I don’t, don’t know
This isn’t working, I can’t do this.

Why would I need to stop being me in order to get better?
“Who are you?” she asks, she thinks she’s so smart.
I’M THE ONE IN THE MIDDLE.
She says “The eye of the storm is empty and I need to get a life of my own.

 

 

Vlog: http://youtu.be/cW3KCDxy0EA

 

You are reading selections from More Sober on the Way to Sane and Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault

http://www.amazon.com/More-Sober-The-Way-Sane/dp/144141231X/ref=sr_1_3?ie=UTF8&qid=1374072329&sr=8-3&keywords=sober+on+the+way+to+sane

http://www.amazon.com/Lines-My-Life-Sherrie-Theriault/dp/1448652820/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1374072576&sr=1-1&keywords=Lines+from+my+life%2C+Sherrie+theriault

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About Sherrie Theriault

Sherrie Theriault, writer and outsider artist lives in northwest New Jersey where she writes villain-free fiction for children and young adults, creates coloring books for all ages, writes daily inspiration books for the recovery community and has other works of collected poetry; also adult fiction. Books available on Amazon.com include the following: Cala Mae The Deep Dark Day In The Congenial Chronicles The Holland’s Adventure Fill Me In Fill Me In, Too Filled In Sober on the Way to Sane More Sober on the Way to Sane Lines from My Life More Lines from My Life On-Liners to Live By My Sponsor Said… Elissa: Queen of Carthage Was Love Lost Order of Protection The Story Precedes the Question Can You See? What the Birdies Told Me about You What the Birdies Told Me about You Coloring book The Enchanting Dog Sherrie’s books are available at Blue Stockings, Manhattan, NY, The Clinton Book Shoppe, Clinton, New Jersey, Giovanni’s Room, Philadelphia, PA, Easy Does It in Long Beach, CA and The Latest Thing in Costa Mesa, Ca. You can find Sherrie’s art work at Hang-Ups Gallery in Allentown, PA or online at: SerendipitousGallery.com Please feel free to contact her there if you have any questions.
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