Dust under the bed turns into bugs. My grandfather believed in these alchemies of myth. I thought myself free from the small witchcrafts of threat. The longer I stay sober, the more real is the insidious nature of my disease. Mental clutter does breed all manner of squirming and chattering vermin. Every intellectual closet I leave uncleaned is a brooding box of contempt, false pride and bloated ego. The synchronism of hatchling defects and nursing grudges, fairy tale thinking and firebrand action, mimic Grandpa’s bedbug rantings. I can never turn my back on unswept philosophy or the dross of assumptions I’ve left waiting in piles. Spiritual house cleaning is all that saves me from the transmigration of blood sucking, life-draining phantasm. Supernatural transformation needn’t plague me if I take right action. The difference between blessings and curses is the direction you are going.
Tiptoe into your heart for a peek.
A Year for Me
The world is my mollusk
and I am its pennyweight paragon,
witty girl that I am.
I have spent enough time
surrounded by wet feet and confining shells,
all held at the bottom of the sea.
This is a year for me.
I am going to climb over the rim of my briny brink
and try myself against the fearsome winds of chance.
Although souse is buoyant
I feel strong enough to stand my ground.
Time has come for life, open and raw,
but I shall leave the clams to the casino.
You are reading selections from Sober on the Way to Sane and More Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault