Inventory

June 22

 

 

INVENTORY

 

“When you say ‘self’ who ever do you mean?” asked my sponsor.  “Do you mean the lovely velvet child or the facade you built to show others?”

“Well, I wish I could answer you, I do,” my reply.

“I see the shrine you construct in your sobriety.  I love that you made it.  When you talk about ridding yourself of ‘self’ I doubt you mean this edifice.  Do you speak of some creature in the past?  Do you know of whom you speak?  Are you parroting then assuming this thing exists solely for you to now dispose of it?”

“I thought ‘self’ was self-evident,” I feebly interject.

“I want names and locations.  If you only suspect some of these entities please provide me with a full accounting of your suspicions.  I also want, to the best of your ability, the origin of these individuals.  I am unwilling to cosign their disposal without a proper bookkeeping.  I see by the bright look on your face I have made myself clear,” she said with conviction.

“So, this is what you meant by self inventory,” I say and sigh.

 

 

Draw a maze of exit from a dilemma.

*

 

 

The Tide in Texas

 

I cannot tell you of my pain,

how the liars took me off my land,

how my heart lay shattered all around,

how I’m so foolish and left in town.

 

I cannot show you the big red ball,

which to me is a shame

or how it bobs and sways or how the tail of it hangs

out of reach and taunts me all the day.

 

But growing up to face the facts

and finding my strong legs

has put me to another tact

and sucks the mud away.

 

Sharing my disappointment and my grief

is like adding ballast to the boats.

It lifts us all instead of sinking me.

Not much of a price to pay.

 

You are reading selections from Sober on the Way to Sane and More Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault

http://www.amazon.com/Sober-On-The-Way-Sane/dp/1440417342/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1388576888&sr=8-1&keywords=sober+on+the+way+to+sane

http://www.amazon.com/More-Lines-From-My-Life/dp/1448677203/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1388576956&sr=8-1&keywords=More+Lines+From+My+Life

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About Sherrie Theriault

Sherrie Theriault, writer and outsider artist lives in northwest New Jersey where she writes villain-free fiction for children and young adults, creates coloring books for all ages, writes daily inspiration books for the recovery community and has other works of collected poetry; also adult fiction. Books available on Amazon.com include the following: Cala Mae The Deep Dark Day In The Congenial Chronicles The Holland’s Adventure Fill Me In Fill Me In, Too Filled In Sober on the Way to Sane More Sober on the Way to Sane Lines from My Life More Lines from My Life On-Liners to Live By My Sponsor Said… Elissa: Queen of Carthage Was Love Lost Order of Protection The Story Precedes the Question Can You See? What the Birdies Told Me about You What the Birdies Told Me about You Coloring book The Enchanting Dog Sherrie’s books are available at Blue Stockings, Manhattan, NY, The Clinton Book Shoppe, Clinton, New Jersey, Giovanni’s Room, Philadelphia, PA, Easy Does It in Long Beach, CA and The Latest Thing in Costa Mesa, Ca. You can find Sherrie’s art work at Hang-Ups Gallery in Allentown, PA or online at: SerendipitousGallery.com Please feel free to contact her there if you have any questions.
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