Gulping

June 9

 

 

 

GULPING

 

 

The plug that lodges in my throat from too much, too fast, causes the anxiety to rise in me.  The panic fulls my contracting muscles into rock solid revolt.  ‘I can’t live’ is the predictable result.  Gulping attention, acclaim, excitement, sex does the same thing.  My heart clots and my personality stops in mid flow.  Everything, in carefully chosen well-chewed bites, makes the process proceed.  My life works along workable paths if I stay away from oversized freight.  I can never swallow myself whole; why would I keep trying to imbibe giants like desire?

 

 

Tumble your heart like a stone then warm it.

 

 

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Prize Catch

 

 

 

There is a reason that fish flap and twist

when they are caught,

why even though they are in the air

they fight for the life that once was theirs

 

Only martyrs go without a fight,

it is good to know that at least this vice is not mine.

When I did not love my life its loss was not an actual change,

there was nothing to hold onto, nothing to struggle for.

 

Now I thrash at the feel of my loved life slipping from me.

It is good to know I have passion enough to rally a defense.

My life can be taken from me, but I haven’t lost my will to fight.

 

 

You are reading selections from Sober on the Way to Sane and More Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault

http://www.amazon.com/Sober-On-The-Way-Sane/dp/1440417342/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1388576888&sr=8-1&keywords=sober+on+the+way+to+sane

http://www.amazon.com/More-Lines-From-My-Life/dp/1448677203/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1388576956&sr=8-1&keywords=More+Lines+From+My+Life

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About Sherrie Theriault

Sherrie Theriault, writer and outsider artist lives in northwest New Jersey where she writes villain-free fiction for children and young adults, creates coloring books for all ages, writes daily inspiration books for the recovery community and has other works of collected poetry; also adult fiction. Books available on Amazon.com include the following: Cala Mae The Deep Dark Day In The Congenial Chronicles The Holland’s Adventure Fill Me In Fill Me In, Too Filled In Sober on the Way to Sane More Sober on the Way to Sane Lines from My Life More Lines from My Life On-Liners to Live By My Sponsor Said… Elissa: Queen of Carthage Was Love Lost Order of Protection The Story Precedes the Question Can You See? What the Birdies Told Me about You What the Birdies Told Me about You Coloring book The Enchanting Dog Sherrie’s books are available at Blue Stockings, Manhattan, NY, The Clinton Book Shoppe, Clinton, New Jersey, Giovanni’s Room, Philadelphia, PA, Easy Does It in Long Beach, CA and The Latest Thing in Costa Mesa, Ca. You can find Sherrie’s art work at Hang-Ups Gallery in Allentown, PA or online at: SerendipitousGallery.com Please feel free to contact her there if you have any questions.
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