What a happy flight, wing to wing, smiles, good cheer, the air is kind, sweet, dry, easy to breathe. I am so blessed. I fly to destiny watching the traveling baby circus play around me. Giggles and drool surround me, infuse me with glee. People wander the aisle looking like well loved characters from long forgotten books and we soar. Time does not pass any more quickly this way, but it is similar to time in heaven rather than time spent in hell.
Mix jelly with joy
RETRO ANTICIPATION AND SUNSHINE
The night after a victory I fret about the blocks.
Will my stance be right?
Will I leave clearly?
I have been first through the tape
I have won the race
But yet I worry how I will start.
Had I anticipated a win
I might have handled the accolades better.
Apprehension has a long half-life
And feeds through the night
On my gizzards and my dreams.
Failure gives homework,
There are rewrites and type-O’s
But checkmate leaves an empty board
And hands to shake.
The long ride home is filled with
Recriminating thoughts of luck and fortune.
By the time I arrive home
The win is devalued and no longer mine.
I must pry misgivings from the winners circle
And enjoy these moments in the sun
They are just as real as any others.
You are reading selections from More Sober on the Way to Sane and Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault