Discussions with my Disease

June 7

 

 

 

Discussions with my Disease

 

 

“You’re not the girl I used to know.”

Not the girl you used to love is what you mean?”

“You’re different is all I mean to say.”

The rest you leave there to rot, unsaid?”

“Something has happened to you.”

Is it something that you do not like?”

“I don’t know who you are anymore.”

Or is it that you never knew?”

“One false move could break us up.”

All your moves are false why will one more cause such change?”

 

 

 

 

 

 

Side with the tide

 

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MAGIC WAND

Why are you wearing that hat and waving

That star studded stick, I ask my sponsor?

Isn’t this what you want, a magic wand, she replied?

Whatever are you talking about?

I don’t want a wizard.

Don’t you?

You thought walking into your first meeting would

Poof—make you all better,

When that didn’t work, you held your breathe for 90 days.

When that also proved a disappointment

You let the air out of your blue face

And started the white knuckle routine for a year.

At the end of twelve months, you released your arthritic grip

And started scheming for a new sponsor

But the new wicked witch sent you scurrying back to me.

Then it was a relationship with the undying love

That would break the spell you are under.

Now tell me again,

How you don’t want me to use this magic wand on you?

Said my sponsor with aplomb.

I guess my behavior gave me away,

Go ahead say your incantation.

I closed my eyes and waited for her words.

Show up and do the work

Keep your mind open, she said

As she waved the cudgel.

That’s it———-I asked,

Well yes– but I have to come back every day

She grinned

 

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About Sherrie Theriault

Sherrie Theriault, writer and outsider artist lives in northwest New Jersey where she writes villain-free fiction for children and young adults, creates coloring books for all ages, writes daily inspiration books for the recovery community and has other works of collected poetry; also adult fiction. Books available on Amazon.com include the following: Cala Mae The Deep Dark Day In The Congenial Chronicles The Holland’s Adventure Fill Me In Fill Me In, Too Filled In Sober on the Way to Sane More Sober on the Way to Sane Lines from My Life More Lines from My Life On-Liners to Live By My Sponsor Said… Elissa: Queen of Carthage Was Love Lost Order of Protection The Story Precedes the Question Can You See? What the Birdies Told Me about You What the Birdies Told Me about You Coloring book The Enchanting Dog Sherrie’s books are available at Blue Stockings, Manhattan, NY, The Clinton Book Shoppe, Clinton, New Jersey, Giovanni’s Room, Philadelphia, PA, Easy Does It in Long Beach, CA and The Latest Thing in Costa Mesa, Ca. You can find Sherrie’s art work at Hang-Ups Gallery in Allentown, PA or online at: SerendipitousGallery.com Please feel free to contact her there if you have any questions.
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