“I want G-d’s will for me,” I sigh to my sponsor.
“Except for this and except for that,” is her trig response. She knows me, knows I have exceptance. “You have a list of exclusions, a list that dams up the works.”
“Well, trust is hard,” I splutter.
“Trust is not the issue here,” says she. “You don’t feel acceptable and exceptance is what follows.”
“Whatever could you mean?” my broken bluster leaving only this plaintive whine.
“You believe you’re not good enough for G-d or anyone and cross everything off the list in an attempt to duck blame or shame or some other nasty thing. You are good enough kiddo, get that and everything else is good enough, too. At least good enough for now and now is all we have. Accept that.”
Include water in your life
The chipped paint of the red stripe
Gives the illusion of fading to rose as it spins
The edge, painted thalo green, in it’s intensity
Reflects the windows of the room.
The bead, purple and gleaming
Affixed to the stem holds the cuff
With it’s two opposed openings
The cord recoiled inside.
Underneath, protected from easy observation
Resides the point, lathed and faultless
The turning weight is carried and balanced
Perfectly on this nib.
The hum, spiraling and melodic
Comes from the table as well as the top
The aptness of form and function
Grace and harmony
In spite of it all
The only thing
Which truly matters
Is who pulls the string.