Frustrating Improvement

October 7

 

FRUSTRATING IMPROVEMENT

 

 

Improvement is frustrating, lonely and yet exhilarating.  It somehow starts with moths in the stomach and ends up with that warm soup satisfaction.  Struggle, waiting, followed by further struggle; progress is made by tugging one string then the other.  It is hard to accept scaling the ropes alone, but tottering assent is always this way.  Once at the top I realize how easily I could slide to the bottom, sometimes friction is all that keeps me up.  Establishing a new altitude is challenging; I must ground myself in a new way.  My talents hinder and aid me.  I must open the correct doors in my mind and avoid the traps in the floor.  Stuttering through requirements and obligations I transform but only slowly, earning each drop of comfort from a job just done.

 

 

Think smart, speak clearly.

*

 

Wasilla

I don’t appreciate those who wear ignorance

as a fashion accessory,

but then I have to work too hard,

not to wear intolerance as a badge of courage.

So what can I really say, while I’m on this topic,

what kind of game is “Playing Dumb”

where do we get with that as the vehicle?

I don’t know why grown folks

act like corralled farm animals,

nor do I comprehend the idea of salvation

through unnecessary sacrifice,

But here I am in a society riddled with it

and I try not to drink in the face of this idiocy.

this is a job for which I am unprepared.

I have spent so much time feeling my internal lacking,

that when facing the siphon created by the general public

I start looking for a glass and some ice to tinkle,

I have tried this before and it solved nothing.

I can climb under this pile of human failing

or try to crawl on top.

What I really must learn

is to look at it without a drink in my hand.

 

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About Sherrie Theriault

Sherrie Theriault, writer and outsider artist lives in northwest New Jersey where she writes villain-free fiction for children and young adults, creates coloring books for all ages, writes daily inspiration books for the recovery community and has other works of collected poetry; also adult fiction. Books available on Amazon.com include the following: Cala Mae The Deep Dark Day In The Congenial Chronicles The Holland’s Adventure Fill Me In Fill Me In, Too Filled In Sober on the Way to Sane More Sober on the Way to Sane Lines from My Life More Lines from My Life On-Liners to Live By My Sponsor Said… Elissa: Queen of Carthage Was Love Lost Order of Protection The Story Precedes the Question Can You See? What the Birdies Told Me about You What the Birdies Told Me about You Coloring book The Enchanting Dog Sherrie’s books are available at Blue Stockings, Manhattan, NY, The Clinton Book Shoppe, Clinton, New Jersey, Giovanni’s Room, Philadelphia, PA, Easy Does It in Long Beach, CA and The Latest Thing in Costa Mesa, Ca. You can find Sherrie’s art work at Hang-Ups Gallery in Allentown, PA or online at: SerendipitousGallery.com Please feel free to contact her there if you have any questions.
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2 Responses to Frustrating Improvement

  1. kikischeuer says:

    Holy crap! For a second there I forgot I wasn’t reading my brother’s blog, but someone else’s. As I love his, I now also love your writing style. Very straight forward and no bull. Please to meet you!! I am Kyla and I am a new fan. =D

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