It’s a full feeling to be a channel. Only an empty feeling when it’s blocked at the base of my spine and God can’t go to my head. The river flows through me and my banks will hold. Excuses dam me up and leave a dry and lifeless basin, with tributaries taxed for usefulness. Staying in the groove conveys my Higher Power’s will without need of my furrowed brow. A hose with no water running is a place for spiders to spin. If I shut off to service, I am a breeding ground for creeping sadness and shocking misery. Compliance allows me the view of flowing strength and rushing joy, the greatest of which is living with intent.
Repeat until you chant.
Shadow of Doubt
The long dark cast covers my face,
my thoughts…….. my life;
it is the light blocked by my skepticism.
To tear down the obstruction
means a profound change of my internal architecture;
walls will have to be knocked down, windows installed.
The poor mouthed structure
takes better to the steamroller than I wish it would.
I fear the loss of my hideout,
panic at the thought of a life in the sun.
Skepticism builds a paper world;
opaque, weak yet frightening to tear apart.
You are reading selections from Sober on the Way to Sane and More Lines From My Life by Sherrie Theriault